Girls and Horses A 8 November 2016

 

The compact bay mare’s eyes widened, nostrils flaring at the thin trickle of water crossing the trail. Gathering her well-muscled hindquarters, which should have been clue enough for the chatting rider, Lena leapt over the offending water, the force jerking her passenger’s head back and pitching her off to the side of the saddle.

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Jen groped for the saddle horn. Hauling herself back to the center of the saddle, Jen reached down Lena’s thick black mane to find the reins she had let go. She patted the mare’s red-brown neck, “Sorry girl.” Turning to Beth who was riding behind her, “She always launches herself over these little bits of water, and yet she’ll walk right through a raging river!”

The mare whickered, a soft, deep hum from her throat, and walked on through the green, gray grove of Aspen. Jen and her cousin Beth had gone for a lunch ride. It was Beth’s last day on the ranch, and Jen so wanted her to love the beauty of it the way she did. But Beth had just said, “ I’d choose the ruggedness of Chicago over this back-of-beyond wilderness.”

Beth wore riding breeches with tall dark leather boots, and a new Gap sweater with a

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matching maroon ribbon holding back her curled black hair under the velvet helmet. Jen’s wild brown curls were everywhere but under her rabbit felt cowboy hat. Her red-checked flannel was long untucked from the tooled leather belt and Levi’s cinched around her slim waist. Jen’s chocolate brown lace-up Ropers were hanging loosely by her stirrups. Beth had been trained in the English style, and executed that discipline flawlessly. Jen was, though, by far the better rider, with a deep sense of how a horse moves and thinks enveloped in her bones.

 

(Part two tomorrow)

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The Road 7 November 2016

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The road was winding and steep, and despite the nauseous feeling in Grady’s stomach, he couldn’t help looking down the rock-strewn ledge to the rushing water below. There were shiny bits sparkling under the rushing, spring-swollen creek. His father had told him it was pieces of mica in the granite rocks. Grady preferred to think of it as gold flecks.

Coming around the next bend, Grady gazed up at the brownish gray canyon walls, noticing a rock formation that reminded him of a howling wolf picture he had in his room at home. Grady felt his heart clutch, took a deep breath, releasing it with a silent sigh. He knew it

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wasn’t much further to his brother’s place. He wished he could live here in the pine filled mountains, like his brother Jake. Grady wondered if his brother would like him, and maybe take him fishing and hiking and ask him to visit for weekends.

His Dad turned off the main road and followed a narrow dirt road swallowed by the tall evergreens on either side. The plowed through snow on the sides was dirty; they’d have to dig down for the clean snow to make ice cream. Jake had told Grady on the phone that they would make some snow ice cream if there was enough snow when

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he came.

Coming out of the trees, and into a meadow, Grady squinted at the bright blue sky and the sun reflecting on the snow. Jake’s cabin sat off to the side with several Aspen trees around it, bare and brown. Jake had built this place himself, the logs were rough-hewn and mortared with plain gray cement. There were big picture windows on either side of the rock chimney, and Jake stood in the front door, watching them pull up.

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Against All Odds 2 November 2016

img_2695No matter what we come up against, that spirit inside of us will carry us along. Carry? Stumble is more like it. It still counts. The human spirit is one of the strongest threads in the universe, because we overcome so much adversity in our lives.

There is something about grit, determination, pull yourself up by your bootstraps, and just plain stubbornness that gets us through tough times. Of course, some go through trials and frustrations with more grace than others, but what does that matter? In the end, we shine like a beacon to others when we persevere, and come through with our ability to love in tact.

That spirit takes where we need to go, even when we don’t want to. That spirit helps us get

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out of bed and face a day we know will be filled with grief. That spirit lifts our face to the sunrise and helps us recognize a new beginning. That spirit strengthens our spine as we face unfair criticism or the wrath of another. That spirit makes our voice strong in front of a larger crowd than we anticipated. That spirit helps us try over and over again until we get it right. That spirit never leaves us dangling out there on our own.

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Colors 1 November 2016

sallys-camra-011Red is powerful in Spiderman’s arms, and gentle when it shines in Christmas lights. White stars on blue, made all the brighter by read stripes woven with white. Tractor hubs are bright red and make her go even faster down the road. Honey Crisped red apples give juicy sweetness to the day. 157

I am not often red with anger, but easily redden in embarrassment, especially when I laugh with others at a joke and then have to ask someone to explain it. Red is the color of love, at least in roses, hearts, and wine.

The jacket is blue with three white stripes running down the sleeves and across the back. His head is covered with a blue hood, it was earlier too, about 6:50AM as he sat under the table. I wonder if monks wish their shrouds were blue? Maybe he wants some blueberriesimg_2695 or, he’s just blue today.

Sparkly blue, his eyes smile and light up my world. His blue shirt is rough woven, speckled now with oil and dirt from the pressure washer. The blue brim of his hat covers the sandy brown hair. Blue jeans rumple around well-worn boots.

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A Horse 31 October 2016

100_0224A horse is good for riding, feeding Jolly Ranchers to, stealing the rake that you left on the ground, neighing when you’re late to feed.

A horse is good for warmth on a cold day, burying your hands in his mane, galloping wildly down a road, racing a helicopter.summer_06_393-1

A horse is good for playing in water, stalking campers, cowboys and indians, sharing an apple with, and packing out elk.

A horse is good for listening, singing your favorite songs to, jumping over logs, ditches and streams, rolling in the dirt after a long ride.

allpics-1028A horse is good for kicking the horse who is following too close, biting the horse in front that is going too slow, lying in a meadow with while he grazes, checking your pockets for a hidden peanut, and…

finding the way home when you are lost.

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A Short Tale 26 October 2016

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A little tale…

Woodchips lined the sides of the cobbled walk leading to the front door. The tiny white flowers of the Yarrow plants sneaking out into the red-brown bricks. Molly breathed deep the sweet cedar, her riding boots clunking as she made her way to the brightly painted blue door.

Reaching up to swing the brass knocker, Molly saw the big, fluffy pillows on the living room sofa through a gap in the partially open door. She flinched as the clinking sound of metal on metal hit her ear, releasing the knocker while the door swung slightly further open.

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Molly shifted her feet, fidgeting with her long brown braid, waiting. Calling out Aggie’s name in her clear, high voice, she began to move into the tiled entryway. Behind the door, Aggie’s tan, lace-up riding boots were on a rubber mat, her red plaid coat jacket lay in a heap beside them.

Molly eyed the comfy looking striped sofa down the step from the front door, wondering where the fireplace was, inhaling the lingering smell of burning wood. No one seemed to be around. She unlaced her own brown

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boots, pulled them off and set them beside Maggie’s on the mat.

Stepping down into the plush pile of the thick gray-blue carpet, Molly sank into the cushions on the sofa. Something was crinkling underneath her, pulling out a small piece of notepaper she had sat on, she read, “Molly, had to run to the store with my Mom, left the door open so you would come in. Back soon. Make yourself at home. Aggie”

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Farmers 25 October 2016

img_1514In September, eastern Colorado farmers are still watering the seven-foot tall, deep green circles of corn. It isn’t sweet corn; rather it is the bland corn that will be ground down for cattle to eat. I was born a Nebraska city girl, always longing for the “Little House on the Prairie” pioneer life.

Moving to eastern Colorado provided me with the modern-day version of this pioneer existence. Starting in mid-October, farmers get into a corn-picking frenzy. They drive the combine and grain cart from field to field to find corn that has dried down enough to pick. A week or two before this frenzy, they have driven their pick-ups to the fields to take hand-shells of several cobs of corn to test for the moisture, and pulled the combine in according to these numbers.

It was during this process, that I entered my pioneer farm fantasy for the first time. Rick img_1511called me one day to see if I would help with harvest while his cart driver was coaching the local football team. I pulled into the field, and was put in a John Deere tractor attached to a huge brown grain cart. He said, “The yellow handle is the PTO, don’t run the RPM’s over 1200 when you unload, and watch the auger so it doesn’t hit the truck.” This replayed in my brain as I struggled to make sense out of it. I’d never heard of a PTO, but I did understand the edict not to abuse it. My jaw was sore by the end of the day, from the pack of gum I had chewed.

Drive slowly and match the combine’s speed while it unloads 300 bushel(back in the day) of corn into my cart. Looking to make sure I’m driving straight down the rows, inches from the corn head of the combine, and then back at Rick in the combine cab for indications to speed up or slow down, like watching a ping-pong match. Drive as fast as you dare, though, bouncing and bumping down the rows and over the sprinkler tracks to go and img_1513dump the cart’s corn onto a waiting truck.

I began to wonder, midway through the day, if farmers ever had to go to the bathroom. I wasn’t about to ask, not wanting to embarrass myself, or expose my ignorance to any truckers. It takes took dumps of the combine bin to fill the grain cart, so I took advantage of one wait, plunging my tractor down the field to the assigned spot. Leaping out the door, undoing my belt at the same time, I gained a new appreciation for shorn off corn stalks.

My day centered in and around the big, bright green tractor. I climbed all over the black img_1516rubber tires, taller than me, sat on the long hood, and got to know all the grease zerks underneath up close and personal. As long as the stalks weren’t too tough to pick, we kept on going for ten, twelve, sometimes fourteen hours. By the end of the day, when the glare of the sun in the windows surrounding me finally rested below the horizon, and the moon, so large I thought I could walk to it and touch it, had eased into the eastern sky, we headed home. There was no dinner on my mind, only bed.

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Deep Within 24 October 2016

img_1517I’ve been deep within this final writing project rough draft for my creative non-fiction class. I tried to focus it on the healing that has taken place since Cathy died. Reliving the whole thing was an emotional roller coaster. By Saturday evening I was empty.

Looking forward to a Sunday when all the things we wanted to get done were right here at home. Putting a coat of linseed oil on all the boards in our cattle alley and chutes was a perfect way to spend a cool and beautiful img_1512day outside. I’d also managed one day of corn harvest and hope for more next year.

As we worked, several huge flocks of geese came overhead, circling and honking as they sought the air currents to take them south. We must’ve seen over 500 geese and as they circled, forming and reforming their classic V shape, we could hear them encouraging each other. We could learn a lot from geese. When one is hurt or sick and has to leave the img_1520flock, another couple always accompany that lone goose so they aren’t alone. That is cool.

Because they fly in formation, the updraft of one helps the next one, so they are able to fly much farther because they work together. And when one goose/gander tires, it moves to the back and the next in line takes the lead, so that the burden of leadership does not fall on one bird; they rely on each other. Mostly, we just love to see and hear the flocks overhead as they make their way back to their homes for winter. Personally, I hope this means we’ll have a winter.

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Plagiarism 19 October 2016

untitled-presentationThe power of denial runs so strong in some students and people, that I am baffled by it. When you turn in an essay that you took in its entirety from a web site, and the language is much more sophisticated than your usual work and you make reference to different readings that no one within a hundred miles has read, including your teacher, what do you expect to happen?

I’m all about second chances, but own it-what you did. Don’t come at me with:

“What?! But I wrote that. How could someone else have used my very same words?” or

“I only had a little help from some friends, but I wrote it myself.” or

“Well, yah, I checked out a couple of websites, but I wrote it myself.”

Just own it. Say something like,”I’m sorry. I panicked because I waiting until the last-minute to do the essay and I ran out of time. I did take it from X source, but at least I changed the order of the paragraphs.”

This way, we can have a conversation about integrity, honesty, and being trustworthy. But untitled-presentation-1when you still deny and wrap your whole body around the “I wrote it myself’ tree to save it, there is nothing I can do but let you have the grade you’ve earned. If you just own it, whatever it was, we can work through it and you can have a second chance to show me your own amazing thinking.

I don’t know what it is that drives us to defend our own “cheating” in whatever form it takes, but I do know it is much easier to own it, fess up, deal with the consequences, find forgiveness, hopefully healing, and move on with some shred of dignity to rebuild.

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A Smack Upside the Head 17 October 2016

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Sometimes it takes a smack upside the head to remember that students come from homes. Some of the homes are not so easy to come from. Some of the homes are poor but loving. Some of the homes are well-off but full of apathy. Some of the homes are violent. Some of the homes are fraught with anxiety, hunger, hurt, and the constant edge of ‘not enough.’

I have to remind myself, more times than I should have to, that school should be a safe place. School should be a place where you can get something to eat. School should be a place where the world of possibility opens up to you. School should be a place where you can build yourself up. School should be a place where an adult will listen, carving out a time and place for you to talk.

All of this doesn’t mean it’s easy. It isn’t. It is the hardest work I’ve ever done, and I don’t

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even have horses to help me! I serve on a committee at the high school and our purpose is to keep students from falling through the cracks. We rack our brains to come up with ways to help and support these students who are not succeeding. I believe in what we’re doing. I just wish we could come up with something amazing that would stem the flow before we have to lose some of these kids to their own inner “I give up.”

One such student came to me and asked, “What can I do to get my grade to passing?” The simple answer was,”Just do the work. Write. Turn in that first poetry project from five weeks ago.” I had the assignment on my desk at the end of the day, and it smacked me upside the head:

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“If you’re not from a poor family, you don’t know the hard times-not being able to afford nice things, having to work more than two jobs, having to come home with little food, not enough money for rent. Poor family. The hard times.

If you’re not from a poor family, you don’t know no new clothes-having to wear clothes from 6th grade, clothes that are too small and ripped, shoes with all the side ripped so water wets your socks, socks with holes so feet freeze in the cold. Poor family. No new clothes.

If you’re not from a poor family, you don’t know bad home-stained carpet and couches, broken cabinets, broken door and windows, bugs, mold, the stench that makes your stomach hurt. No clean water to drink or shower with. Poor family. Bad home. ”

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It takes you down to your knees in prayer.

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